Where Am I?

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It has been an emotional roller coaster of a week. I have been down because of some awful attacks on my character, social media and hope. I have also been very close to Jesus and holding on so tightly to my faith and hope. I have watched as my friend has been attacked in the same sort of manner, by the exact same person. It was a long week, a very long week. We both spent a lot of time in tears, in prayer and questioning what can/should do about this. I had created a social media page to get my journey out there and share with others. Someone (I won’t name drop) reported it and it was deleted. I boldly declared, and by boldly I mean with a screaming foul mouth, that I would just recreate it under my maiden name. Truth be told, as soon as the screaming rant came out of my mouth I was very upset with myself and I didn’t feel good. I told my husband how nasty my mouth tasted from my vile eruption. I calmed myself down and ask God to guide me and help me do a semi-recreation. That’s when it happened. I was getting things done and heard this, “just do it personally”. I knew what that meant. I had started the journey and used no personal identifiers, because although it is my journey I wanted to let God shine threw the entirety of it. I wanted it to be only about what God is doing, not about me personally. I believe that I was doing the right thing just in the wrong way. I deleted all that I had up to that point. I decided to take some inventory of the people in my circle, both personally and on social media. I first went through all of my contacts and decided who was in my close circle. Then I set out deleting groups on social media, then I started deleting people. Everyone that I am not close with. Everyone that is a fair weather friend. Only around when they need me, but never around when I need them. Everyone that that says one thing when I’m near, but are comfortable letting other say what they will about me. Anyone that has been dishonest with me. Those that have nothing but drama and negativity spewing in every conversation. I deleted everyone that I didn’t feel any positive personal connection to. My heart really started lightening up. Then I set forth setting up My Faith Ministry. I am not a Preacher, Pastor, Bishop or any other religious title, I am truly just a woman sharing her journey. I am starting to find where I am. Not in relation to location, but in relation to where is my heart at. Where is my heart leaning? Where is my heart going? I know that I have a God created purpose for my life. I am stepping more fully into the preparations for that purpose. Here’s some scriptures to help you to study, pray and mediate on finding your purpose: Proverbs 19:21, Proverbs 20:5, Psalm 138:8, Jeremiah 29:11 , Matthew 4:19-20, Romans 8:28, Romans 9:17, Ephesians 1:11, Ephesians 2:10, Ephesians 3:20, Philippians 2:13, 2 Timothy 1:9.


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